At ten years old, my friends and I thought doing prank phone calls was about the worst thing a person could do. Which is why we did them. We were daring. We were black-hearted. We were Blackbeard the pirate, the desperado Jessie James, and Bonnie and Clyde, all rolled into one. Yes, from the phone in friend Greg’s kitchen we would ask complete strangers, “Is your refrigerator running?” After they answered, “Yes.”; we’d shout, “Well, you better go catch it!” Then we’d hang up and laugh until our sides hurt. Oh, yes, we were juvenile delinquents, living life on the razor’s edge. In our felonious hearts we were a half step away from toilet papering the neighbors house, or sneaking into the other neighbor’s pool with our clothes on. You can tell we were bad to the bone. Somehow by the grace of God, I was saved from my evil ways and saw the light of God’s love and grace.
I tried to call a church member yesterday, but they had changed their phone number and I had dialed the old number. I received the answering machine of some folks I’d never heard of. When the message on the machine told me it wasn’t who I was calling, I hung up. Five hours later, I received a phone call. “Hello, this is Wally Bygolly (not his real name), and I received a phone call from this number at 2:41 this afternoon.” My reply was calm, intelligent and professional, “Huh?” It turns out that my wrong number was Wally’s home, and my call recorded on Wally’s caller ID. He was checking to see who was calling him. As I contemplated this exchange I realized one dangerous temptation of youth has been eliminated. We can no longer anonymously ask the convenience store worker if they have Prince Albert in a can. Children are safer now. We can rest assured that the phone ringing in the distance is not a preteen waiting to ask you about the state of your appliances, but a tele-marketer wanting you to donate to the “Save the Common Garden Slug Foundation”. For a small $2,500 donation you will be giving a slug a home, good food, and an education. Won’t you adopt a slug today?”
Psalm 139 begins with the words, “1 O LORD, you have searched me and you know me. 2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. 4Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD. 5You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.” Despite my youthful wanderings, God loves me. He knows me, who I am deep down. There is something wonderful and disturbing about God knowing me that well. There are times I wish I could shield my heart and my thoughts from Him. There are times I wish I could hide. There are other times I want to come to God like a child with a skinned knee goes to his mother. I want to be known, loved, held. There is rebellion that lies just beneath the surface of this heart of mine. At times it bubbles up and shows the ugly side of who I am. Despite it all, God reaches out. He loves. His grace flows. He enters into this mess I call a life, and I know even without caller ID that God is with me. He sustains me when I’m down. He walks with me in the darkness. He lifts me when I am flailing. He is there by His Spirit. And I know, 3 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. (Isa 40:31)
Chad